2020

12^th January 2020

To those who are no longer with me,

January. To some it is just that. The first month, the start to a new year. To me, it is the month that likes to try and see me fail. The first week of January is just filled with me saying ‘What day is it?’ on repeat. The second week of January is fill with me procrastinating the work that I should have done over the Christmas break. This year, January is begging to see me fail by way of the fact that I have three deadlines in three weeks, extremely poor planning on the part of my University. Right now, as I sit on my bed having just eaten my breakfast, well brunch, I’m writing this with a game open on my phone, acting as if I don’t have a three-thousand word essay due in on Wednesday, or a two-thousand five-hundred word essay due in the Wednesday after, or that I have a week’s worth of seminar prep to do.

This January will not see me fail. The fact that University starts once again tomorrow, and as much as I am dreading the 6am alarm going off it, means that I am going to have a routine and structure in my life again and I am determined to stick to it this time. I have a plan in my head- note to self: write it down. I have mentally set aside times to write for my blog, and post to my blog, hopefully in this new year I won’t let it slip through my fingers like I did the last. I have mentally set aside time to write, well edit actually, and as soon as I have finished writing this, I’m going to submit my book of poetry to a publisher. Positive thoughts everyone. I want to set aside time to video call those friends that I no longer see all that often.

I have a good feeling about this year, I actually do, which in itself is a rarity. I actually made some resolutions this year too.

1. Drink more water (The other day I bought a bottle that had the times of the day on to help with this)

2. Edit and submit Scribbles to publishers (A book of short stories I have)

3. Learn how to French braid my own hair

4. Submit my poetry book to publisher (literally about to happen)

5. To sing more. (I love singing, even if I may not be very good)

6. Read 50 books (I have let my love of reading slip in recent years, currently have four books on the go)

7. Learn to say basic phrases in the language of a country I would like to visit

8. Devise and stick to a skincare routine (this is a big one for me, my skin has been awful as of late)

9. Learn how to bake bread

10. Learn to love myself more.

I didn’t want my resolutions to be in relation to changing who I am, those have been tried and in the past and have never been successful. I want this year to be the year I better myself. Not physically. If physical changes happen along the way I sure as hell won’t complain but that is definitely not what my focus is. I want this year to be the year I better myself emotionally and mentally. I want to learn new things and learn more about who I am. I want to love my friends and family harder. I want to become the best version of me, without changing what I look like. I would like to learn to love this physically shell that I have. It has gotten me through a lot and deserves a little love.

So, not only is my 2020 going to be the year of self-love, I hope it will be the year of new successes, giving back, and learning new things.

What does your 2020 have in store for you?

So, that is what you’ve missed,

Love, always

Tiffany Jade

xo