I'm a Law Student
21st May 2019
To those who are no longer with me,
I'm a Law Student. Now, I know there are a lot of jokes
out there about Law Students who just have to announce, for no
reason what so ever, that they are in fact a Law Student. I, am not one of
them. I am purely stating a fact for those, who like this post is addressed to,
who are no longer with me. Only one of them knew I had any interest in Law
before they kicked the bucket (oh, that hurt, it's not even been a year yet),
the rest of them never knew. So here I am, a Law Student with my first year
officially under my belt as of three hours ago. That was my last exam anyway, complete with an 100% chance of failure as I'm pretty sure the examiners were not looking for me to call an entire country a shambles. Oh well, what will be, will be.
Now I just have the anxious wait for my results on the 5th July and I pray to hell that I have passed all my exams and I do not have to retake any of them because as of this moment I am completely unsure as to whether or not I would survive. If I liked the thought of emoji's in the middle of my letters/post there would be a laughing/crying face right here, but personally, writing should just be that, writing. This isn't a text to a friend, it's a snippet into my life, a professional side of my life. Hell, who am I kidding? The only professional thing about me is that I'm a professional procrastinator. If there was a job for that, I would throw my Law degree out the window and be all over that. And if you're perfectly honest with yourself, so would you.
Now, back to the juicy stuff, I know you lot up there are probably wondering what the hell I'm doing with Law, when you last saw me, I was all about the page and the stage. That is still very true and still very here. Don't you worry, the drama queen in me has not disappeared for good. I did nothing but work two nights a week, consistently, I had other various jobs alongside, in a night club for three years. I had to do something, so, I decided to go back to college to do Business. I know I know, business, yuk, why would you do that to yourself? Trust me, I asked myself the same question maybe three weeks in. I had the idea to open my own shop, another dream I've always had, there are many dreams I want for myself and hardly any of them come true. Anyway! In order to do a business course at college I had to take two other courses along with it. I chose Tourism, because why the hell not, and a subject that had always caught my eye always intrigued me but I never had the balls the pursue: Law.
Low and behold! Law was great. It was fucking awesome. I had discovered a new passion I never even knew I had room for. I was firmly under the impression that all my passion had been used up by the stage and the page. Apparently not. Goody for me! For the first time in three years I was finally doing something I loved again, and I know that I could have probably finished writing a book in that time, I've got plenty to choose from, but honestly, writing wise, when I started my job at the nightclub that ended up lasting three years, when it came to writing I was broken, but those who are no longer with me, that's another story. This is all about the fact I am a freaking Law Student! Would you have ever thunk it, because I know sure as hell wouldn't.
There is only one downside to being a wannabe actress turned wannabe lawyer: 'So, why are you even doing Law?' Hmmm, let me think...maybe because I enjoy it? Is that not a good enough reason? Sorry that I don't come from a long line of lawyers, or have an urge to change the law from the inside. I am not ashamed to admit that I am in it for my new found love of it and I will never hide that fact ever. I was lost for so fucking long, and don't get me wrong, I will never wish to turn back the clock on my time in the club because I met some amazing people there, but in finding Law I have found myself again. It is still hard. My life still has its challenges, but instead of sitting around at home doing nothing with my life, I have something I'm working towards and the only person who can screw it up is me. Which, I might add is highly likely, however, I don't plan to let myself, because if I let myself down that means letting you down and I can't do that. I won't do that.
Yeah, look at me now you lot. I'm a freaking Law Student, hear me cry into my textbooks at night.
Now I just have the anxious wait for my results on the 5th July and I pray to hell that I have passed all my exams and I do not have to retake any of them because as of this moment I am completely unsure as to whether or not I would survive. If I liked the thought of emoji's in the middle of my letters/post there would be a laughing/crying face right here, but personally, writing should just be that, writing. This isn't a text to a friend, it's a snippet into my life, a professional side of my life. Hell, who am I kidding? The only professional thing about me is that I'm a professional procrastinator. If there was a job for that, I would throw my Law degree out the window and be all over that. And if you're perfectly honest with yourself, so would you.
Now, back to the juicy stuff, I know you lot up there are probably wondering what the hell I'm doing with Law, when you last saw me, I was all about the page and the stage. That is still very true and still very here. Don't you worry, the drama queen in me has not disappeared for good. I did nothing but work two nights a week, consistently, I had other various jobs alongside, in a night club for three years. I had to do something, so, I decided to go back to college to do Business. I know I know, business, yuk, why would you do that to yourself? Trust me, I asked myself the same question maybe three weeks in. I had the idea to open my own shop, another dream I've always had, there are many dreams I want for myself and hardly any of them come true. Anyway! In order to do a business course at college I had to take two other courses along with it. I chose Tourism, because why the hell not, and a subject that had always caught my eye always intrigued me but I never had the balls the pursue: Law.
Low and behold! Law was great. It was fucking awesome. I had discovered a new passion I never even knew I had room for. I was firmly under the impression that all my passion had been used up by the stage and the page. Apparently not. Goody for me! For the first time in three years I was finally doing something I loved again, and I know that I could have probably finished writing a book in that time, I've got plenty to choose from, but honestly, writing wise, when I started my job at the nightclub that ended up lasting three years, when it came to writing I was broken, but those who are no longer with me, that's another story. This is all about the fact I am a freaking Law Student! Would you have ever thunk it, because I know sure as hell wouldn't.
There is only one downside to being a wannabe actress turned wannabe lawyer: 'So, why are you even doing Law?' Hmmm, let me think...maybe because I enjoy it? Is that not a good enough reason? Sorry that I don't come from a long line of lawyers, or have an urge to change the law from the inside. I am not ashamed to admit that I am in it for my new found love of it and I will never hide that fact ever. I was lost for so fucking long, and don't get me wrong, I will never wish to turn back the clock on my time in the club because I met some amazing people there, but in finding Law I have found myself again. It is still hard. My life still has its challenges, but instead of sitting around at home doing nothing with my life, I have something I'm working towards and the only person who can screw it up is me. Which, I might add is highly likely, however, I don't plan to let myself, because if I let myself down that means letting you down and I can't do that. I won't do that.
Yeah, look at me now you lot. I'm a freaking Law Student, hear me cry into my textbooks at night.
So, that is what you’ve missed.
Love, always
Tiffany Jade
Xo.
Love, always
Tiffany Jade
Xo.
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