Wish You Were Here

 Sunday 15 th March 2020 To those who are no longer with me, To say that 2020 hasn’t hit me like a brick house would be a lie. Back in January I spoke about how this year was going to be all about loving myself and learning new things, and that I would definitely stick to my New Year’s Resolution… The drinking of more water lasted about a month. I’m still trying but I’m not having as much success as I was. In fact, I’m pretty sure that all of my resolutions remain untouched bar one. I sent my book of Poetry into a publisher and should hear either a yes or a no by the end of April. In regards to this blog, I am sorry it’s been so long since I have been here, it has been so long since I have written anything that wasn’t remotely Law related.   Like I said, so far, this year has knocked me sideways. I am struggling more now than I think I have since 2014 and I was in a really, really bad place back then. My attendance at University has dropped dramatically and I’m ...

12 th January 2020 To those who are no longer with me, January. To some it is just that. The first month, the start to a new year. To me, it is the month that likes to try and see me fail. The first week of January is just filled with me saying ‘What day is it?’ on repeat. The second week of January is fill with me procrastinating the work that I should have done over the Christmas break. This year, January is begging to see me fail by way of the fact that I have three deadlines in three weeks, extremely poor planning on the part of my University. Right now, as I sit on my bed having just eaten my breakfast, well brunch, I’m writing this with a game open on my phone, acting as if I don’t have a three-thousand word essay due in on Wednesday, or a two-thousand five-hundred word essay due in the Wednesday after, or that I have a week’s worth of seminar prep to do. This January will not see me fail. The fact that University starts once again tomorrow, and as much as I am dre...

10 November 2019 09:20 If you had met me 2 years ago, you would have met a calm, funny, outgoing person who was lying to herself about how she was.  Someone who would go home and just sit for hours on end binging Netflix, who had no social outing planned because she felt like she either wasn't really wanted there or just couldn't be bothered to go. Someone who had a husband and loved him, but rarely showed affection because she had so many drugs in her system, she couldn't feel her emotions. Someone who was a shadow of who she was before the medication.  I used to take 3 pain medications for the pain, 2 for anxiety and depression, 1 for symptom control and 2 for sleep. This was how I functioned for 5 years. 5 years of being a shadow and feeling disconnected from myself and numb.  It wasn't until I found out I was pregnant that things changed. I wasn't allowed my medication; it would harm the baby. So, I made the decision to stop all my drugs at once. ...

10th November 2019 To those who are no longer with me,  To all my regulars, you'll have noticed that since returning to University, Wish You Were Here has kind of felt as if it was on the back burner, and it was. The start of this Uni year was so full on and so overwhelming that something had to give and it unfortunately, it was this. That doesn't meant to say that it is the end of Wish You Were Here (this blog means more to me than I could ever put into words,) because it's not, it just means that the day I upload and the frequency of when I upload will change. From now on you get to look forward to hearing from me on a Sunday instead of a Tuesday. The time slot will still be the same, so be sure to be on the look out at 3pm for a new post. For the time being, the frequency of once a week will remain the same, but the closer we get to Christmas and deadlines I may have to cut it back to every other week. In addition to me switching days on you, I am also super exc...

29th October 2019 To those who are no longer with me,  My favourite holiday? Halloween. Why? Not a clue. I have no idea why I love it so much; I don’t really have a reason to. I never got to go trick or treating as a kid. ‘We’re not American,’ my mum and dad used to say, ‘It’s not our holiday.’ The first time I went trick or treating, I was sixteen and it wasn’t the best experience in the world. You see Halloween celebrated all the time in movies and my experience at sixteen did not live up to the hype I had built in my mind. I went with a friend. A girl I am no longer friends with, she didn’t live in the best area of town and there was one so far, we could go. There weren’t many houses that were welcome to trick or treaters and when we did finally stumble upon a welcoming dwelling, they asked for a trick instead of a treat and I was completely unaware that that was even an option, let alone something people did. I remember standing there, rooted to the spot with absolutely...

8th October 2019 To those who are no longer with me,  Now, I know that I have missed the last two weeks so for that I am sorry, but let me tell you, settling back into the swing of things for second year has been hard and chaotic, but I’m here and this week I am here to tell you about a deep love of mine. Writing. I recently decided to treat myself to a new book and I went ahead and pre-ordered The Giver of Stars by Jojo Moyes, and for those of you who don’t recognised the name, we have her to think for the film adaptation of Me Before You . Those that know me know how much I love her work, and I currently have two of her books on the go. Not the best decision I have ever made but totally worth it. The other night I settled down and I read the first chapter of The Giver of Stars and I was struck. Suddenly and out of nowhere I had the inspiration and motivation to sit and my desk and work on my own book that hadn’t been touched since February. I had forgotten ...