I'm a Make-up Addict, With A New Make-up Haul....Not Sorry.

16th July 2019

To those who are no longer with me, 

What is a make-up haul I hear you ask?

At 22:31pm on Thursday 2nd May, I shamelessly bought £46.20 worth of make-up, with the complete intention to buy more. Now, please, don't think I am made of money, that is far from the trust, as we have already established, I am awful with money and do not save it when I should. More often than not, I almost certainly end up spending it on make-up, and this case, all I needed was a new highlighter. 

I bought four, and maybe a few other things along the way. 

Shameless I know, already called it, but I'm not even sorry. 

I love make-up. I never used to. I have a memory of my sister and her friends chasing me around the house trying to force me into wearing eyeliner and I was terrified. Now, I know more about make-up than she does. She asked for make-up and make-up brushed for her birthday once and doesn't use them because she doesn't know how. I take enormous pride in the fact that I used to be terrified of my sister's make-up and now I can rock a wing and she hardly knows what one is. I love her just the same. I'm just the one with the awesome make-up at the family parties. 

I really wish I was heavy into makeup at secondary school though. Mascara, eyeliner and a bit of lip gloss was my speed, but I think, had I known what I know now about make-up it might have helped me, maybe, probably not, who am I kidding. The girls that bullied me were pure poison and the guys were worse. Make-up couldn't have saved me back then, and thinking about it, I'm actually glad, I retract my previous wish. If I was heavy into make-up back then, I wouldn't have worn it for myself like I do now and I probably would have ended up resenting it. 

I did start out wear make-up properly for other people though. When I first got my job at the local nightclub in October 2014, I was the only one there not wearing make-up on a shift, and staff and customers used to question it. That felt odd, but I never understood why people who worked in clubs wore make-up anyway. You're just going to end up sweating it off, right? Wrong. 

When I started wearing make-up for work, I was actually awful, and don't me wrong, I'm no Jaclyn Hill, Tati Westbrook or Jeffree Star, but I'm not half bad. I can blend like my life depends on it and I can co-ordinate a lip to go with said blend, but whereas now I can wear maybe seven different eye shadows on my eyes at once and you not really know, back then, I could only wear one. 

I really developed my skills while working at the club. I spent many a week night lost in the beauty guru side of YouTube and Instagram and without even realising I was learning. I was learning the skills I use in my everyday make-up. I learnt that if you're going to do dramatic eye make-up, you should probably also wear make-up on the rest of your face too. 

And, now? I love make-up. I really do. I was going to say that I hardly leave the house without it but that's a lie. I'm not someone who wears it day in, day out regardless of they're doing. I don't have to wear make-up in order to leave the house either. Nine times out of ten, no matter how much I love the stuff, I just really cannot be bothered to put it on, even though I can now do a full face of every day make-up using ten products in ten minutes, I like sleep, and that takes priority, always. I only ever wear make-up for myself. It makes me feel more confident and if I'm feeling especially shitty, it makes me feel better.

Sorry boys, but this blown out smokey eye with bold lip is definitely not for you. 

However, just because I don't depend on it doesn't mean I'm not addicted. I know I am. Not a big addiction that is actually a problem. Just a small little addiction that is more of a tiny inconvenience more than anything, and in my defence, it had been a while since I last bough make up, and none of the stuff I purchased this time had I bought before. So, I'm just branching out. 

Oh! And, I usually by eye shadow palettes. I didn't this time. That's improvement. 

That plus the fact, I have a tendency to give make-up that I buy blind and then don't like to my friends. So, I may be a make-up addict, but I'm a nice one. 

By the way, a make-up haul is when you have no impulse control, so even though you just require one new highlighter, you end up buying four and then also a blush palette, a cream contour palette, an eye primer, a liquid lipstick, a mascara, a colour correcting primer and a new liquid eyeliner. Not forgetting the free gift for spending over a certain amount. 

Again, not sorry. 

So, that is what you've missed. 
Love, always 
Tiffany Jade
Xo.